My Thoughts

Now... lately there have been things going on with members of my extended family that have got me to thinking about my own family's past and things that happened when I was a child and the feelings that certain individuals in my family still seem to have towards me and my mom.

I can't voice my mother's opinion on this subject but I can voice mine and so far all I can come up with is - Some people need to grow the *insert any word of choice here* up!!!!

We are adults, childish behavior needs to be left behind with the childhood years and if you still feel the need to act like an adolescent then feel free to put on a diaper and grab a bottle. Childish behavior helps no-one and gains you absolutely no sympathizers. It does howsoever gain you the title of "Self-Centered B****", be you male or female. It gains you the ability to look like someone who hasn't learned that the world doesn't revolve around them and is able to isolate you into a place that no-one wants to be.

I'm tired of the "Poor, Poor Pity Me" trip and people who tell lies to gain whatever gram of sympathy they can from people who truly just want to love you for you and be there as family, together.

I guess that's all I have to say on this now other then, No-one is a pawn to be used by another. We are all individuals who create our own happiness and are entitled to that happiness as well as keeping that freewill that allows us to keep those who wish to bring us down out of our lives. The flip-side of that is that when those who have wronged us may or may not be able to enter our lives without that door being there for them to use.
 So when/if we tell those who continually bring us headaches to take a hike because we don't need nor desire the stress they induce upon our lives we should allow them the door to enter our lives again. We can accept the apology or just accept that they have changed until evidence contrary to this presents it's self and hopefully those who are family will realize we love them and want them as a member of our lives but we hold the right to be individuals without requiring their permission to be who we are. We also hold the right to kick them out again should they begin the same BS again and unlike a child... an Adult doesn't require more then one chance and is old enough to know that a true apology means they WONT repeat the behavior again and will do all that is necessary to prevent a repeat performance. 


These are my thoughts and now that it is off my chest I feel slightly better. I hope this little rant of mine can help another but if not, It does help me.

Hello again my lost Friend

So.. once upon a time I was very good at writing on this... Then I lost it for awhile, even going so far as to forget I even had a blog. I started writing again when I wanted people to see just how far Levi has come with his schooling in such a short time and as the end of the school year arrives, about 4 weeks left, I find that I've made very very very few entries on his schooling yet if you are a friend of mine on FB then you will have seen constant updates on that topic as I've felt as though I've been thrown back into school and I've been learning right along side my son.

Go figure though, he's in 2nd grade and the things I'm learning weren't even broached in my HS classes or in college, well some of them were for HS but not many.

Any way, today my cousin was over to do her son's class assessments because her comp is down and as we are doing History for the block schedule today my darling eldest child had to show off his History Record Book of past lessons, the one he's using atm covers only Units 9 - current (current being unit 13), and of course he had to show off what he's learned and tell about the things she commented on, such as where Timbuktu is located.

I realized, as I sat there listening and occasionally asking him questions, just how much he has learned in 3 semesters and just how much more he will learn in the coming years and I am afraid that soon I will not be able to say I am smarter then my children ;-) at least not in some of these subjects.